2017 was kind of a shitshow for me if I’m honest.
Don’t get me wrong, some really cool stuff happened…
So, there have been some really cool highlights tucked away in this year! You might have spotted that I didn’t have any pictures for October or November – I genuinely couldn’t find any to post. Not even any awful quality pictures, nada. I think this kinda shows when I fell apart this year.
The most important thing I found was that I continued taking my medication, continued to contact my family, continued to eat and tried to sleep a normal amount. I knew I was stressed because small things would really get to me. My boss would tell me I’d done something wrong and I would burst into hysterical tears. Someone would message me slightly bluntly and I would obsess for days and rip myself apart trying to figure out what I had done. I was a sleep-deprived, over-emotional zombie just trying to get through the term. The arrival of December was such a relief.
I know that we all deal with stress differently. I know that I have a great set of tools to help me cope and that I have a support system I can reach out to. The thing I struggle with the most is realising at the time that I’m not dealing with things. I’m great at lying to myself; my default setting is to turn inwards and downplay what’s going on. So, one of my main aims in 2018 is to properly assess how I’m feeling. To take some deep breaths when I’m panicking and just remember that stress is a normal part of life. It’s important to learn how to deal with stress in a healthy way so I don’t sabotage relationships and progress I’ve made.
I’m really excited for 2018. I hope this year is my year.
I’m also sending all the best to everyone reading this. I wish you all success and happiness in the coming year. Feel free to let me know some highlights/lowlights of your 2017!